Running Out of Steam

Perhaps this season is more stressful than the last (or relatively, I was slacking too much last time) that made me starting to feel the effects of burnout so early in. To deal with failure and pressure at the same time is not assuring, as to face either with low self-esteem (whoever doesn't when faced with a string of regrettable and shameful failures?) is literally asking for trouble. I know I have to face this somehow, when I work and toil among others who can handle stress much better than I am, but the attempt to improve on this sector may just be the last straw.

Yeah, I have to grudgingly admit, I've not been pushing my body to the limit for the past 2 years. Maybe 7. Yeah. Which is why my tolerance level sucks. To suddenly push for it when others have honed theirs for 7 years total... *falls dead*

I need to come out with a plan. Either that or I really need a planner.

If only I have the courage (and determination) to shake my fists at the sky and yell "I'm not done yet!"...